Skeleton Woman

From one glance to another

she looked me directly in the eyes.

Does she know what I know?

Why must we pretend with lies?

We are psychic women, and we are wise beyond our knowing.

Believe not in your lies.

Believe but in butterflies.

The only person that holds you back, is yourself.

Bang the drum. Beat the heart.

Call your heart into being.

Call upon your bones.

Call upon your butterfly bones.

Call upon - Skeleton Woman.

''Allow skeleton woman to become more palpable in your life, and she will make your life larger in return. When you free her from her tangled and misunderstood state and realize her as both teacher and lover, she becomes ally and partner.''

I have drummed through to the bones these past few days, in fact, I've been silently drumming for quite some time, but only now have I finally let her out.

Only now have I finally met Skeleton Woman

I have been fishing and I have untangled my net.

I have been running, for a long, long time.

But now, I let her out, and now, we sing, and now, we dance,

and I can't stop smiling.

I've felt high all weekend. My pupils were fully dilated yesterday, I was still buzzing from a musical jam me and my lovely friend Sooz had over the weekend - full of natural highs - and it felt AMAZING..we had such a scream! And we realized, both together, how bloody good we were...ARE.

We were both close to tears with our joy, it was powerfully overwhelming, to have realized our own creative potential in this way I've not felt a feeling like that before..the natural rush and natural high of intense joy all over my body; skeleton woman was out..and in full motion..jangling her bones. The day before, when I played with Javi, I felt her at the back of my throat, she was eager to get out, and now that I had called to her; now that she had heard my drumming, later that evening, she was out.
I see now that in the past I suppressed her with self doubt, I listened to fear instead of letting her out. I controlled most of my life instead of really living it - that felt safe, and safe was easy - but I soon began to realize and to learn, that safe and easy never really gave me any true satisfaction in return.
The demons that nagged at me during sleepless nights were her faithful warriors, guiding me to their fire; guiding me to her home; guiding me to my drums, and guiding me to my bones.
I played with that fire, and I danced on those bones.

And once again, she was out in full skelly swing.
I played with another musician, and oh my days..it was so good!! We jammed for a good three hours. It felt amazing to let my true self - my bare bones; my bare blood - come to the surface; to let my soul express herself freely - it was so beautiful, and to share this with another soul was amazing.

I'm collaborating with some very talented and very beautifully honest people.

I am very grateful for this, and I'm embracing it fully, and will continue to do so.

It's a very intimate and deeply communicative feeling when playing musically with another soul, especially when you open up your heart in such an honest and truthful way. This is something I tended to shy away from before, because I was afraid of my own potential; I was afraid of meeting skeleton woman; I was afraid of my butterfly bones.
But now, I embrace her, I call to her; I bang my drum, my beating heart, and I call upon my bones, and I sing her to the surface, and now she sings with me, and now we dance, to the beautiful beats of our butterfly bones. 

'It's very good for your digestion,' she said.
And so I ate the coconut,
and so I ate the banana.
Not just because it's good for my digestion, 
but because I was hungry.

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